My master fanfiction list, sorted by fandom:
( Stargate )( Battlestar Galactica )( Legend of the Seeker )( Other Fandoms )( Crossovers )

( Fanvids )

Some things I've written in comments or on Tumblr recently, mostly ASOIAF/Game of Thrones short fics, a couple LotS kink meme fills.

Title: Rain God
Summary: Maester Cressin cares for the Baratheon boys. Renly, Stannis, gen, G.
Read here

Title: A Night on Bear Island
Summary: Jeor and Maege are interrupted. Dacey, Jeor, Maege, gen, G.
Read here

Title: Lionesses
Summary: Joanna and Genna Lannister drabble. Gen, G.
Read here

Title: Whenever Robert doesn't show up for the Small Council meetings...
Summary: What it says on the tin. Script-form crackfic. PG.
Read here

Title: Ghosts of the Past
Summary: Renly tells Loras about his childhood. Maleslash, PG.
Read here

Title: She Loved a Maid
Summary: Sansa/Margaery in the open fields. Futurefic, femslash, PG.
Read here

Title: I Miss the Rush of Your Skin
Summary: Cara finds Richard on his own with her agiel. Smutfic, R.
Read here

Title: An Important Lesson
Summary: Kahlan's away and Richard and Cara are browsing the kink meme. Crack, smutfic, R.
Read here

Title: The Dregs of Power
Summary: Shae and Sansa don't have a good relationship. A quickly written fic set after 2.03, because I love both these characters too much and I don’t even know. Intersections of class and gender and character development. PG-13.
Read here

Title: One of Old Nan's Tales
Summary: A cracky crossover drabble involving Brandon the Builder and...you'll see. Brandon the Builder plans to build The Wall.
Read here

Title: Tully-Red Fur
Summary: Brienne rescues Sansa and returns to Jaime, but there's a problem. Crackfic, PG.
Read here

1. I posted both a meta on minority representation in television, as well as one on GoT fandom and how they treat Joffrey.

2. synergyfox is showing me the show Rome for the first time, and I'm quite enjoying it. Some of it is...problematic. And there's a couple characters I can't stand (also the opening credits are WTF). But altogether I'm liking it, though the other show we've started is The Tudors and so far I prefer that one.

3. My brain seems almost incapable of writing fic that doesn't come to me on a whim. It's very frustrating, considering how many planned fics I have in various states of WIPs.

4. For those who weren't aware, my fiance synergyfox and I are both polyamorous, and as it turns out we just proposed to a longtime crush of ours...and she accepted. So we're all three going to live together as soon as we can afford it. (I swear, my love life is more successful than any fictional character's that I've written about...it's crazy)

5. Still working on uploading all my fic to AO3...

For those who aren't following me on Tumblr, I apologize for my silence here. As I've probably said many times before, my issues with anxiety are compounded the deeper I am in fandom, and LJ fandom (being more organized and lengthy) is harder than other areas. So I haven't read my flist in...at least two months. I've written some fic, but I haven't read any, I apologize.

Instead of all that, I've spent a lot of time gaming and engaging in low-key discussions (er, flailing, both RL and Tumblr) and it's been a good kind of different. Fandom sometimes is literally bad for my mental health and I need to step back. :-/ However, I never can leave completely. Mostly because my dear fiance is in it too, and since we live together now, every day involves some fannish discussion. Or, like last week, going to a convention together. Or like yesterday, her six-month anniversary present arrived: a replica of Ned Stark's greatsword Ice. That's our favorite shared fandom right now, ASOIAF/Game of Thrones. We're actually watching the new season live and spoiler free—and that's a lot of fun.

Apart from fandom, we've been reaching out into the polyamorous and sex-positive/BDSM communities around where we live, and been reminded once again that the Pacific Northwest is awesome. Of course, explaining all our alternate lifestyle choices to our families...awkward as hell. Oh well, that's what the closet is for. I've also been doing a lot more research for my original novels, since those muses have been overwhelming my fanfic ones recently. Beyond that...housework, cooking, work, and catching up on TV shows and movies that I missed when they first came out. Life is busy, even without daily LJ fandom.

While on a brief hiatus from the LotS fandom, I wrote some ASOIAF/Game of Thrones fic that I posted to Tumblr with graphics.

Title: Living for Nothing
Rating: PG-13 (disturbing images)
Length: 300
Characters: Joffrey, Sansa
Summary: Joffrey's point of view at the Sept of Baelor
Read fic and view art here

Title: Falcon's Song
Rating: G
Length: 513 words
Characters: Sansa
Summary: Sansa finally makes it back to Winterfell.
Read fic and view art here

Title: We Are Strangers and Rebels
Rating: PG
Length: 2467
Characters: Renly, Margaery
Summary: This wedding night is not the kind the minstrels would sing of, for there's nothing to sing about but secrets. (Gen but mentions Renly/Loras)
Read fic and view art here

And another brief ficlet:

Title: A Flutter of Wings
Rating: G
Length: 428
Pairing: pre-Sansa/Margaery
Summary: Sansa and Margaery go falconning.
Read fic here

I was pondering the notion of dreams in fiction the other day—the non-prophetic ones. Authors often use them to reveal characters' secret desires, to trick the reader into thinking something incredible actually happened, or to just create a sense of chaos. The last is by far the more realistic scenario, as dreams in real-life are mostly haphazard and confusing. Even nightmares...and this is where my mind went to, as I thought about fictional dreams.

In my life, I've gone through a few highly traumatic situations. Dealing with that trauma while awake is difficult enough, but I've also had nightmares. These memories were nightmarish enough when they happened—therefore my mind thinks that I should relive them, but ramped up to an exponentially worse level. Way to go, mind! Er...or not. I'm no fan of these nightmares. They stick with me. Not only do they bring back traumatic memories (and even memories can bring adrenaline/panic) but they often also muddle the original memory. Going through the nightmare's version of events sometimes colors the original memory, adding on an extra layer of fear.

So of course, as an author who's addicted to writing characters who go through traumatic events, I'm interested in fiction that uses nightmares to purposeful effect. After all, most of my favorite fictional characters have gone through far worse events than I have (body taken over by a parasite, tortured as a prisoner of war, watching a parent killed before your eyes, half eaten alive by rats, etc)—how horrific must their nightmares be? This is a place for authors to character build, and to develop characters' relationships.

How do these traumatized characters deal with potential nightmares? Are they haunted for days, or do they shake it off quickly? Do they pretend like it doesn't bother them, or do they need to vent/beg comfort from a trusted friend? Do they end up with insomnia? How do the people around them help (or hinder, for that matter) their process of dealing with trauma, and nightmares that may go with it?

Whether original fic or fanfic, I am interested in seeing scenes based around this subject. Hurt/Comfort and Angst are the obvious genres, but you could also get into Relationship Development of the gen or shippy variety. I think I may write a few oneshots myself...

1. Round 2 of the Legend of the Seeker pornbattle just finished, and the masterlist of fics (sixty-three in all!) can be found here. As per usual, femslash fans dominate the fandom, but there's some good het in there too (I'm the only one who wrote slash apparently...)

2. While I've been watching only very little new TV lately, I am super-excited for Game of Thrones to come back. I've been RPing in this universe a lot recently, and fallen even more in love than before with most of the characters.

3. I had my depression/anxiety under control until the start of this winter, but SAD is making it so that my meds aren't helping enough. I've been apathetic, randomly weepy, anxious, and irrationally angry over the smallest of things. Apologies for anyone who's had to deal with my behavior... I need to make a doctor's appointment about upping my medication's dosage.

4. The previous point is why I've been mostly absent from fandom, but the other factor is that being not-single takes up a lot of time. A lot of wonderful time... I could gush for days about my girl, and how even grocery shopping with her is better than anything in the world. But I'll spare you that fluff.

5. I've been converting said girlfriend to Fringe over the last few months and gah this show! I'm a little iffy on Season 4 so far, but we'll see how it goes—regardless, the earlier seasons have incredible rewatchability. Olivia! Nina! Charlie! Astrid! (Have also converted one friend to Battlestar Galactica and two more to Legend of the Seeker)

6. I mainlined the first three seasons of Big Love during the past month, but though I was hooked early on I think I'm already falling out of love. This show is so surreal sometimes, so weird. I do ship Nicki/Margene and Ana/Margene like burning. Shallow stuff out of the way, I love the exploration of how religious patriarchy interferes with true polyamory—it's not a happy show, and I have to be in the right mood to watch it. Polyamory, whether sexual or platonic, is something that's sadly absent from both media and much of fandom.

7. All the censorship acts in the news recently have been gutwrenchingly depressing to me. Enough said.

Originally posted by electricdruid at The fiasco continues

Title: Teasing and Follow-Through
Fandom: Legend of the Seeker
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Denna/Cara
Length: 1659
Warnings: agiel-play, dom/sub
Summary/Notes: Cara's a young Mord'Sith and she teases too far. Denna doesn't let anyone win against her. Written for the Seeker Porn Battle prompts "agiel-play", "gowns and masks", and "Mord'Sith games"

( The hall was filled with magical light thanks to Lord Rahl )

Title: Perfectly Good at Being Bad
Fandom: Legend of the Seeker
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Cara/Kahlan
Length: 1253
Warning: g!peen
Summary/Notes: AU. Lady Rahl punishes her favorite Mord'Sith. Thank you to simplesetgo for producing the idea of the magical elixir. Written for the Seeker Porn Battle prompts "Lady Rahl!Kahlan" and "Kahlan gets a magical penis"

( Cara's waiting on the bed, stripped )

Title: We Just Want To Be Whole
Fandom: Legend of the Seeker
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Richard/Darken
Length: 1850
Warning: Incest
Summary/Notes: AU. Richard always believes in hope, and though the House of Rahl is broken there's beauty to be found. Written for the Seeker Porn Battle prompts "gentle", "lies" and "love".

( Denna could never manage to break him. Best of the Mord'Sith, but Richard was beyond her skills. )

Title: Handle Me
Fandom: Legend of the Seeker
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Cara/Post-Tears!Dahlia
Length: 2081
Summary/Notes: Cara finds herself entranced by an innkeeper who has a unique understanding of dominance and submission. Written for the Seeker Porn Battle prompt "not so soft".

( "This is becoming your favorite inn," Kahlan remarked )

Title: How May I Serve You
Fandom: Legend of the Seeker
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Nicci/Richard/Kahlan
Length: 2563
Warnings: CMTDI (Confession Made Them Do It, aka technically noncon but tonally dubcon)
Summary/Notes: Nicci can't have Richard without Kahlan, so it seems. Written for confessorlove, for the Seeker Porn Battle prompt "confession".

( "Let me distract you, mistress," Kahlan had begged )

Title: Innocence is a Lie
Fandom: Legend of the Seeker
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Kahlan/Denna
Length: 2623
Summary: AU. Kahlan has to prove herself worthy to serve in Denna's brothel.
Notes: Prequel to Ask Me No Questions, I'll Tell You No Lies. I could have waited until tomorrow and posted this for the pornbattle...but it wasn't written for that, so have some extra porn!

( Candles flickered on the mantel in the madame's chambers )